Blast from the past

I am still riding the ultimate high wave… Not from anything I took, although I did consider that, just too numb the pain…

Much to my surprise it wasn’t needed at all!!!

I was invited to a farewell party on Friday eve by my very good friend that resides in Canada at the moment (Lucky Fish) He is such a sweetheart and I have known him now for 19 years… scary scary thought… Anyhoo, I was incredibly reluctant to go, seeing as most of the guests would be people from high school…

And to my utter surprise, it would seem that most of my friends from high school (mostly the girls) didn’t really like me… or some shit like that… Sooo to get back to my story, I was scared shitless for the following reasons:

Did I really have any friends during high school?
I had gained so much weight, and well that kinda gives a girl a bit of a self confidence issue.
Did I really like all the peeps from high School
What if my ex was there…?

I decided no, I needed some form of support and who better than Aber… The situation was explained and we headed to the Vaal at 6pm Friday… That of course found the two of driving around like idiots trying to find his house, seeing as I haven’t been there since 2000… I eventually found it…

It was one of the scariest experiences… But Aber was there, and I was determined to go in… So while I was sitting in my car hyper ventilating, I got a phone call from D, who wanted to know where the hell I was??? My first ego boost… Someone was waiting for me to arrive, just like in the old days…But this time it wasn’t just my BF… it was all the guys I knew and cared for in HS…

As I walked in all the fond memories started flooding back… I walked through the house recalling some crazy moments and then reached the back yard where everyone was waiting….Dum Dum Dum

As I walked in J (a girl that I barely said 2words to, ever) got up and gave me hug… saying how good it was too c me again… The other girls remained seated… no real surprise there – I suppose.

But then C got up and freaked out that I was there, he gave me a huge hug and told me that I look fab, but then again that I’ve always looked fab... I spent the whole evening chatting and hugging old friends, and although I was evil eyed by most of the girls there, I loved every moment of it. B, was staring at me, following my every movement (he is still hot) JK, turned Japanese and was taking sneak photographs of me… C couldn’t stop hugging or holding me… P, smiled at me whenever his S### of a wife wasn’t looking, H couldn’t wait to say hi, and JM kept on saying that I was beautiful… and the conversation was great… I still have it!!! Wooohooo…

The best compliment I got that night was when I was about to leave… JK walked us to the door and told me so by the by that “Cheese” had told him to say hi to me… Now cheese was the hottest guy in school, and let’s just say that I became very quiet whenever he came near me…and barely spoke 2 words to him throughout H.S. And here he was sending me a special Hi…

Now peeps I know its sounds a tad “Seventeen magazine” but screw it, Here I was thinking that I wasn’t really liked, and well to my utter surprise, nothing has changed… 6 years later they all still have a thing for me… And yes the Sms’s are flowing in and I am flying high!!!

Collective Soul - Perfect day

There she stumbles
Falling to her knees
I think she tripped on reality

I have witnessed
Tragic comedies
Thats the world in which she leads

Well I would walk a million miles
To give her all that she needs
But she would walk a million more
To do what she believes

Shell have a perfect day

Troubles blooming
Innocence now fades
But still shes dry through
All the rain

Theres no purpose
She has yet to crave
Shes like the big dog on parade

Well I would walk a million miles
To give her all that she needs
She would walk a million more
To do well as she pleased

She had a perfect day

I cant figure this one out
Ive no words here to explain
Shell just sugar kiss me off
Shell just have another perfect day

Wow!!!!! Is all I can say!

Seeing Charlotte was really good last night, she got me a really nice gift for X-mass. I love it when you can see that people actually put some thought into the gift that they bought you! It really means a lot.

But the wow part has more to do with dinner! I was pleasantly surprised.

Ok, first some back ground.

I met WK one night in Melville and I was dragged against my will. But I went and I basically had a pineapple juice made nice with a couple of people and then left highly annoyed that I had driven all the way there.

Most of the party consisted of a bunch of students and they were talking bout school and assignments. Not quite my scene. But WK, was a bit different. Anyhoo didn’t pay much attention as I had just broken up with my looooong term Bf of 6.5 years... So needless to say I wasn’t in a single kind of mood.

Anyhoo, this was all in 2004. So since then WK has been asking me out, I didn’t respond to the first couple of requests and then he kind of stopped. But in 2005, our paths crossed again, and the same thing happened except that we were actually trying to see one another, but our schedules didn’t allow it...

But this time we kept in contact, went for one quick drink at Rosebank one night at 11pm at the end of 2005. Anyhow, that seemed to be the problem throughout 2006, but low and behold we got together last night for dinner.

I didn’t quite know what to expect and seeing as I have decided to fly solo for a while, and not snog every snoggable guy I come across, I was a bit nervous. But he picked me up and we went to SOY... (Beautiful)

Now usually a dinner date is kind of awkward and you jump into ordering your food as soon as possible, just incase there’s nothing to talk about.But this was different, he ordered a stunning Merlot and then we just started talking, after about an hour we realized that we haven’t ordered any food yet... wow.

So that’s what we did.We proceeded to cover the general topics usually entered into at such occasion, such as favorite food, hobbies, work, family and music... And well let’s just say we have a lot in common. It was such a breath of fresh air; he didn’t challenge me on anything just for the sake of challenging. He asked when he wanted to know more, and he had no hang ups telling me about himself. And here’s the wringer, I was actually interested to hear all about him.

We laughed, had good conversation, I said some stupid things, he said some stupid things, we laughed again. Dinner arrived and that was deeeevine.
Anyhoo dinner lasted 4 hours, when we noticed that the waiters were starting to pack up the tables around us, we decided to leave.

He took me home, opened the door for me kissed me one kiss goodnight, like a perfect gentleman. And then he left.It was a perfect ending to a perfect date!

And I dare say that I am still interested to find out exactly what makes him tick. Oh well that’s my little story for today... Now if only the day will end!

Wednesday

So its Wednesday…

Man oh man, has it been a long day… But we are officially on the right side of Friday!!! I have gone from having no plans to being fully booked until Saturday evening…

My schedule is insane:

16:40 Rush home, have a shower…
17:00 Welcome friend over for a quick hello and a gift swap.
17:30 Have a glass of vino and catch up…
17:45 Get dressed and talk some more shit with CP, while she does my hair and I get dolled up.
18:20 Say bye to CP, make plans to see each other again.
18:30 Being picked up by WK and taken to dinner…


Sooo, dinner better be good… then 2morrow eve I am having coffee with a JK to catch up on the past 3 years, as he now resides in Canada and needles to say I don’t see him much… I cannot wait to see him! I just hope we have something to say to one another!

Friday heading to the Vaal straight after work with Aber to go to a casual farewell braai and chill… and then head back to the city of gold… woooohoooo….

On sat we will be catching a movie and then proceed to celebrate champagne Thursdays seeing as we cannot do it 2morrow… (Friend doesn’t consume the adult beverage fondly looked upon by teenagers and adults the world over…)

And then the sad reality will kick in that Sunday is on its way, and although its still technically weekend, it gets poisoned as it’s the day before the day that we have to drag our asses out of bed at a pathetically early hour in order to brave the Jozi traffic, so that we can work our asses of and start the whole disgusting cycle all over again.

I did have some amusement today though… I received a very strange email from a friend…. And the conversation that ensued afterwards was for lack of a better word HILARIOUS! I mean here I was merely attempting to actually do some work when this email sneaked into my inbox.

Check it out:

Hi all,

Please bear with me here, but I need help finding something I really need.

I’m looking for those giant condoms, the ones made for people to climb into. Does anyone have an idea where I could get this? In JHB if possible.
Thanks,
CF

My response was….
Hahahahahaha!!!!!!!!

Some people are fascinating creatures...

Here I am at my office, sitting in front of my PC chatting to a couple of friends mainly because I just couldn’t be bothered to do anything constructive, and I find my mind wondering because some of the people I chose to chat to today are behaving like idiots...

Aber and I have decided to do an Aus trip, and I am now trying to find out whether my long distance familiee would be willing to put up with me for a little while seeing as they are scattered all over the good areas in the land down under…And that means more spending money for me…

I am sure they won’t have a problem, but I still think I should ask… he he he I actually cant wait, think it’s gonna be a blast… Have been browsing a couple of holiday sites and then checked out the whole home exchange thing and it looks so cool, only problem is that there aren’t many people looking to stay in JHB for a holiday, seeing as whenever a crime hits our fair city, our own press immediately phones up CNN and multiplies the infraction by infinity, making it sound that you wont be able to leave the house without being raped, murdered and stuffed into a suitcase… So I am completely out of luck there…

It reminds me of a Marion Keys story I once read. She writes about her trip to Sunny SA, and she stayed in Sandton… Her publisher told her to under no circumstances leave the hotel, as there are people roaming the streets of JHB with AK47’s… Anyhoo she writes of a hair dilemma forcing her to leave and seek help and to her surprise she wasn’t rapes and had her head blown off by an AK47…

The ignorance of people… I don’t think people realize how great Jozi really is, I mean I have been a resident of this fine City for almost 4 years now, and before that I only lived 45 minutes outta the city… And I must say that I think the people here are extremely friendly and very giving… Sure we can be rude, if a CT number plate sits in front of us in traffic and displays signs of narcolepsy, because they just don’t drive when they’re supposed to drive, or when a store attendant pushes you out of the way in Edgars 2 days before X-mass, forcing you to turn into medusa and start screaming like a pregnant biatch…

But the city is beautiful, and the people are great!

Wooohoooo, almost Thursday, and yes in 2006 I hated Thursday, but well that will all change in 2007, as it has become our new Champagne day… Thursdays Rock


And Now that I’ve done enough shit talking for one day, I shall say Good Afternoon!

So working has officially started for me.... ARRRGGGHHH. How hateful... And I so enjoyed my holiday, and just started getting into the whole swing of things.

But man oh man, did I do some serious thinking over the holidays, its amazing where your mind can wonder when you sitting around with nothing to do but think…

So 2006 was a real biatch of a year, and there were a couple of times I considered letting the balls drop just for the hell of it… But it’s over now… I found myself thinking of past relationships, friendships, conversations and occasions and analyzing every second of it…

It would seem that I have been holding on to some of these X things and it has caused some shit in my currents… I now find myself making friends with people I don’t really like and people I have nothing in common with, aside from the fact that we breathe.
And as for the whole love aspect of things, I have been behaving like a T-shirt at the final clearance red hanger sale…Just hoping someone would buy me, before I get sent to the factory store in some Bob forsaken town somewhere in the Eastern Cape…

And all this has caused me do some serious soul searching as to why I started behaving like such an idiot… Nothing really jumps to mind… All I know is that’s its over. 2006 is over and I say good Riddance!!!
I am so excited for 2007, I can barely contain myself. I do however need to send a special thanx out there to some of my peeps:

1- Aber – Chicken, thank you so much for all your support, and listening to me whine and moan about shit. And just being there to cheer me up and just for being you! THANK YOU! I defs plan on keeping you as a friend for an uber long time…

2- Naya – Even though we fight like cats and dogs, we will always be connected and I will always have your back, as you will and have mine! Love ya!

3- Moomsie – he has become the voice in my head, and no matter what I do I cannot seem to drown her out, and I don’t want anymore!

4- WK – Thanx for the brilliant ego boosts over the past 2 years, you never give up, and I wanna say thanx. You’re always there with an encouraging word or two, and you always make me laugh (sometimes at you). You are a good friend!

5- JK – Thanx for making me realize that I am more than this, and that I should never sell myself short. That there are people that care, who have cared for a really long time. And that I should just stop to smell the roses from time to time. Huge Hugs!

But the holiday is over now, and we all need to get back into working our asses off.

At least I ended the hols on a very high note with Aber... hehe. After saying bye-bye to LA at da Airport, us two tarts headed straight into Melville for a trip down memory lane... Wow has Melville changed since last I occupied that side of the valley... But yes, we still have it... We barely sat down and woohoo, a bottle of Pongraz arrived... Gotta love being a girl...

I guess what Im trying to say is, we all screwed up and we all have things we shouldn’t have done, but it’s a new year a new clean page, and we have the pen in our hands!

Have a stunning 2007, and Ill see you all on the way to the top, and we can have Champagne whenever we want!

Rock on!

Wooohooo, so I haven’t quite been myself lately hence the fact that I haven’t managed to post anything in ages or even pick up a paintbrush... I know it’s kinda pathetic, but it would seem that life has gotten me down the past couple of weeks... I actually think I was bordering on being depressed - not a great thing at all...

So I got to thinking the other day (No this is not a once off occurrence) what exactly is making me so unhappy? And apart form the fact that I am bordering on obesity, I have stumbled upon another reason for my morbid frame of mind... I seem to have lost myself… Now bob only knows where I wondered off to…but I have defs gone astray…

I have however decided not to despair, seeing as the holidays are on their way in full swing, as a matter of fact I only have 2 more days left of work work work… and they are going to be absolute torture. But I am staying positive. And that of course means that I will have 3 weeks of trying to find myself (cheesy I know, but its true) So starting on 15 Dec 2006 at 15:00 I will be in full swing to seriously find myself, starting of with camping over the weekend, not something I would normally do, but what I used to is lay around and read a book or swimming, so I reckon it kinda falls into the scope of finding myself. And of course all of these activities will be done surrounded by people I love and people who love me – and this is where I might be able to find my little lonesome self….

Although I must say that I am already feeling way closer to myself… There has been so much going through my mind keeping me up at night, and form about 3 days ago I have been sleeping like a baby. Special thanks to Aber who stuck by me through this terrible time!

I spent last night with my cousin talking shit and planning 2007, with a glass of vino in one hand and the other hand making suggestive empowering gestures (as if I am rallying a troop of soldiers to face sudden death) And I must say it did me wonders, have subsequently decided to seriously take up playing the guitar, be ridiculously rich and arrogantly happy. Have also decided to become incredibly selfish and only think of myself!!!

So goodbye to 2006 and Welcome 2007!!!

Viva happy days and drunken nights!

ME

What the FFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

How is it possible that there is no one out there that can actually take a simple instruction and follow it through? Where the fuck did it say in my job description that you would have to deal with incompetent morons on a daily basis... IT DIDN'T!

I am going to have a fucking stroke... And if there is anyone in the universe with some sort of power over the way things go, then this would be the perfect opportunity to prove that you exist!


I AM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE!